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[Monday, March 31, 2008]"1:46 PM
this morning when the moment i wake up,saw a msg..feel some thing is not right..what it say is completely not what it does..what i did or what i done is not what it come and say..what i have done the most for her and the way i treat her i din regret..i will give more what i can give,i try my best to do the best..i din say any word or blame others..in the end what it come is a different story..i really love her too much,if she wanna go,i will let it go..i will not do any thing else..i will bless her all the way to get happiness and xin fu..i will not do any thing more to hurt her and just wish her luck.. why all the excuse is the same and not others..people will change and it's really change..it's really din take time to change just a blink and everything just change..the hurt and pain i carry on just not to give her pressure and let her feel xin fu..all the sad,pain,hurt and unhappiness i will carry on my back..i don't feel what i did is for nothing and i din regret it..now the pain i carry is very very very heavy..it hurt alot..but i still have to carry it along..i will not let any one to carry for me and i will not rest..i will carry it all the way..i will not give up.. time say short not that short,say long and not that long..what we have go through and this is it..no one will understand it and know what we did before..only both of us know what going on..we had share sadness,painful,unhappiness,lonelyness,happy and every great momment..all this thing every sec in my mind and i won't delete it all away,i will still remember the happy and great moment we had..that how we build up relationship..i believe we did our part to do each and every thing..no one will come into it to disturb.. we go through all this though road..why still have to end it this way..there really no other way that can chose..what we go through,is it a waste..is it the end of our jourey..i really have no idea what going to be next..jourey has reach the pit stop and it can't move..sad thing is that we can't really reach the last stop..so disappointed and sad..that the best it can go and not futher more..since you have ask for a stop,nothing can make it move..i don't wish to give up but i have no other choice..if you wanna stop it let call it a shot,no others word or comment from me..if you really can't handle this kind of stuff and pain,so let end it this way.. why life have all kind of thing going on..why human must have feeling..don't have feeling is it the best..got feeling make thing worst..stress,pressure,sad,disappointed,pain,hurt,happy,unhappy and this all kind of feeling in a life time you will feel it..it just the matter how serious you get it..i get all this feeling and get it on a hard way..hard way till i can't even express it out..in my life i get all the thing in suey way..play majong get shit card and can't even win,do what ever thing,thing can't go smoonthly,like a girl and can't win her heart..feel that this is not my life and is a tourture..really can't take it any more.. it's time to rest,i feel so tired and sick of it..let me have some rest..i really try my best..what already been done has been done..no matter how you cover the hole is still just a hole..feel that wasted alot alot alot of years in this kind of thing..wanted to sleep and can't fall asleep,my eye just can't close it..wanted a peace time and it come so suddenly..when peace time come and just don't want to rest..so after thinking and thinking,maybe is a good thing and bad thing..got good and bad point in this way..i really can't think of any idea to continue..brain shut down,heart stop beating,blood stop flowing,eye can't open and body can't move anymore.. life is like that..when schooling you want to work,when working want to school..when you wanted the thing in the end it come but you still think the old want is better..mind over body or body over mind..i find human got this kind of thing happening,if you are not human of coz don't have that..haiz say so much also pointless..i think have to end it here,too long le..feel so tired..just let me rest in peace..bye guyz
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["12:24 AM
this few days find something is MISSING just don't know what is missing i try my best to find out but there no clue just like a puzzle missing by one piece coz have to complete it and have to find the very last piece in the end can't find it sad and disappointed really can't find the very last piece now can't complete my beautiful puzzle ~miss Miss MISS~
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[Sunday, March 30, 2008]"11:59 PM
i'm back from oversea..when there 2 days 2 nights..set off at friday night 11pm..reach there early in the morning 5am,it take us 5hours to reach..so check in one room,put down our barang barang and start to walk around..sharon,jon,wei and me,when for breakfast,than shop around with the shop is not open yet..bought theme park ticket and ready for the fun..i did enter casino,tot inside would be fun just like arcade but find nothing interesting..inside there so smokey,my eye can't take it and my eye are so dry.. whole day just walk around,buy things and casino..this few thing keep doing and doing..until night 11 plus than sleep..next morning wake up,go for breakfast,than i go in casino again,this time really play and try different game..after everything,check out of hotel,go 1st world there ask bag keeper to look after our barang barang and can shop for 1hour 30min while waiting for bus to arrive.. 2pm board the bus and set back to singapore,board the bus not long about 15min and it started raining,keep raining till we reach checkpoint(custom)..it took us 7hours plus to reach tampines..on our way back,saw alot of accident,that course traffic jam,that why we took more hour to reach singapore..overall i find the trip just so-so only..i din really enjoy myself..when reach there just don't feel any excited..feel so moody..did try myself to enjoy it but just can't get the mood..my mind just keep thinking alot alot alot of things..haiz that all..take care guyz..
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[Friday, March 28, 2008]"4:48 PM
left a few hour to oversea trip don't feel any excitied about it although long time din go oversea just that the mood is not there what wrong with me what happen to me hope that when reach there can totally relax and enjoy myself have some cold wind let the cold wind blow away unhappyness have a nice view treat it as san san xin ~ hope is a happy holiday ~
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["1:07 AM
there are people in this world who intend to hurt you but there are also people who get hurt because you are hurt
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[Thursday, March 27, 2008]"9:46 PM
sky getting dark moon has raise it's night time again nightmare of mine going to start lonely and cold don't know what to do and have to go through this tough night everyday to me mean everynight everynight mean nightmare nightmare mean i really scare now i really hate night time it make me feel lonely and cold just like a small boy walking in a train tunnel keep walking on the track feel so lonely so cold and waiting for hope to him there's no day time but he still keep walking and walking without stopping not giving up until when he see light just the matter when can he see the light ~ really feel so lonely and cold ~
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[Wednesday, March 26, 2008]"10:23 PM
another night has come mood still the same don't even know what i thinking of thing still the same nothing has been done is it end of my life the day has come but don't know how to face it problem is problem stress is stress but who will know what the ending what if it end what if still the same will the problem slove will the stress go off is that my life or ending now nothing can be slove and wish time wash up eveything time cure sadness now want to rest and have peace but problem and stress still there i need to face it or not i have done my part but still i can't rest in peace still got alot of thing have to slove now adays i feel cold not i din msg or call is just that some one need have some peace so i din want to disturb it hope everything will be fine and let time cure the pain
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["12:57 PM
found this movie quite interesting..Takeshi Kaneshiro is back with a new movie and it's call 'Accuracy of Death'..so i have loaded two trailer,enjoy it..1st one is full ver and the 2nd trailer is 3sec ver..
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[Tuesday, March 25, 2008]"11:02 PM
knowing the true is a worst nightmare you ever had is even more scary than your nightmare in your dream the feeling you had totally can't express it out and you don't know what to do next you will keep thinking that wanted to accept it or not can say that the feeling is very very bad
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[Monday, March 24, 2008]"11:03 PM
this few years i found out that some people is a 'two head snake' or 'two face'(hope you guyz understand) why they want to be like that?? they chose to be one or it's born inside them?? if you don't like the person,when see each other or meet,why still can pretent as nothing and happy talking all the way.. than after saying good bye,they can say each an everything about others,say bad point and bad thing and bad mood..just non-stop of bad thingy stuff..but none of it is good point..if you really don't like that person,why still want to meet or what..meet already still want to B.S,talk bad thingy stuff behide their back.. why in this world got this kind of people.. just hate this kind of people.. if you really don't like them just don't meet and get far far far away from them..and can save up your enegry to talk about others bad point..and i think they also don't wish to meet up this kind of people,just that they want to give face.."mian zi shi ren gei de,shi kan ta yao bu yao gei" just hate this kind of people..
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["10:27 PM
Today feel so lonely out of sudden got this kind of feeling and think alot of stuff who am i now?? i am who i am or i am 'WHO' am i.. think alot of thing but again keep thinking there's no answer while thinking i found an answer why i smoke ANSWER IS 'forget unhappy things' what i mean by this?? when i happy,i wish those around me feel happy too.. when i sad,i just want keep it to myself.. when i sick,i just want to keep low profile.. when i angry,i just want to have a slience moment.. if you don't know me much,i have say it out.. why i say all this,is just that happy thing i can share with you guyz,i happy and you guyz happy too.. sad,sick and angry..of coz i can't share with you guyz,this 3 thing i try to keep it to myself.. and i don't want or wish to spoil the great happy moment.. no matter what,i will be the jokker,laugh and smile it all the way.. can say that,try to hide what inside of me and cover my sadness and unhappyness.. say it out also got no point,it getting more sad and unhappy about it.. it's true that,times cure everything.. sick time just want a peaceful time and doesn't want to let people know i sick.. sad time i just want to laugh,be jokker and smile all the way,just don't want let people know how sad i am.. angry time i will just like what i just say on above sentence but some time i really can't control it and just throw out my temper,i don't mean anything to hurt people but i just out of control..(sorry to those people kana before) haiz think have to stop,too long.. haiz feel so lonely....
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[Sunday, March 23, 2008]"5:31 PM
hi guyz..i found this trailer..haha find it cute..so the show name call 'WALL.E'..some more is the creater of 'The Incredible','Cars' and 'Finding Nemo'..watch it..
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[Sunday, March 16, 2008]"11:46 PM
found this two trailer..find this show very nice..so check it out who inside..hee enjoy..the show name is 'crows zero'..
trailer 1 trailer 2
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[Thursday, March 13, 2008]"11:14 PM
halo again it's me..hee today still the same very tired today wake up damn early lor..so get prepare and when downstair coffee shop to meet my d3ar for breakfast,she wanna accompany me go..after breakfast when down to drivin center..still early,refresh abit and ready to go..test start at 0915 i ended at 0945,took me half an hour to complete but too bad i got a ~FAIL~..got 3 question i din see before lor (not in the book as well),so bobian lor pray hard that i chose the correct one..haiz abit sad lor (sob sob sob),din pass the test,BUT never mind,this time fail next time sure will pass,today just like go down there to have a exp..haha after that head to marina square to watch movie..before the show start,go for bowling..haha long time din play le..so after bowling and show,go walk walk around..than go back home for dinner of coz she along..dinner done and send her home (by the way,still raining lor,why so much water up there)..so that all for the day..yawn..nite nite..ZZZZzzzzz.......
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[Wednesday, March 12, 2008]"11:51 PM
hi guyz..yawn abit tired now..today wake up very coz today going for couple outing at sentosa but before hand when to ubi driving center to book my BTT..don't ask me why now than i take the test..just becourse of not free..during in camp time..there's no free time for me..wanted to book it but last min got duty..so get it..reach there around 11plus than when to counter for booking,actually chose Jun for the test than the counter person say tml got slort so he ask me tml wanna try it out so that don't need to wait..so i agreed and take tml test.. after everything done,we head to vivo city to take the sky train in..haiz is a bad weather,keep raining non-stop..alto is cooling but spoilt the trip through out our day..never mind so we continue our outing..so when inside the island,we straigh away go to underwater world,tot got lots of thing to see in the end still not bad..have a torch on the stinray,wow their skin veri soft and smooth,you guyz long time or haven been in there can try to it out..after that go to dolphine lagoon,to see pink dolphine perform..than last stop is 4D show,have to wear a special spec(hmm you know last time got a paper spec which the lens is red n blue) some thing like that..after that have to head back to vivo city for dinner.. overall for today,not bad,weather cooling alto raining and spolit our day,all chose in door places and have fun in the rain..haha i will give 7.5/10..haha k la got to go study BTT le,have to refesh some question..so take care and see ya..
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[Monday, March 10, 2008]"3:41 PM
i just wake up not long ago when the moment i wake up open my eyes feel that some thing is missing and i don't know what is it still wondering what i going to do for the day to rot or sleep for the day without thinking any thing have a peace of mind so when i wake up again what i going to do next i really don't know i can't keep escaping i really sick and tired of it for my whole life i din get this kind of feeling before wanna cry but just can't get out of my eyes wanna laugh but can't find any reason to laugh if you were me what will you do hope this feeling won't last long
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["3:15 AM
我是怎么了 是生病了 还是疯了 我真的不知道 我在做和想些什么 人在活着的时候 有很多很多的烦扰 但是人死后 他还有烦扰吗 做人烦 不做人还会烦吗 真的很多很多问题 但还是找不到答案 谁能帮帮我啊 真的好困扰
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[Sunday, March 9, 2008]"11:30 PM
hi guyz..blogging time..so today when out with kenneth and his gf juli (halo)..we meet up in the afternoon around 2plus at P.S,go for lunch and later on walk to THE CATHY for movie..we watch Rule #1..overall the show so-so only,sound effect is nice but not scary,story ok-ok but some scences are sad.. after the show,i introduce them to hanabi japanese resturant for dinner..haha fun part is that juli forgotten to bring along her camera,so she keep saying and regret that din bring it along..so sad of her,can't take photo of those nice food..never mind next time ask kenneth bring you there again.. dinner done,bill done..next thing is to have dessert @ ji de chi if i din get it wrong,still at bugis area..so i had a double milk with mango juice hope i write it correct coz too long..haha not bad,top part like duo hua below have mango juice..after dessert and it's time to head back home..haha that's why i blogging now.. but overall today spend a great time with you guyz..looking forward to the next outing and hope you guyz enjoy yourself..
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["4:19 AM
现在 我人还没睡 睡不着 心里有一种 不安 和 说不出的心情 真的很烦 是怎麽了 为和有这感觉 不知如何是好 看着黑暗的天空 想了很多东西 可是 怎麽也想不通 真烦啊
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[Friday, March 7, 2008]"7:49 PM
ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD LOHHHHHHHHH......... hi guyz update again..haha today is my big day..this day i won't forget and my PINK IC is back..i now a (NS) alex..haha so happy..i get my PINK IC at 1.00pm sharp by the way,thanks for those people who spend those years,month,days,time,min,sec in the army..we had a good and bad time inside.. so my new chapter going to being..new life new stuff coming..hope you guyz will surport me all the way..finding new job and making new friends too.. k la,update done..in future will keep you guyz update again..
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[Thursday, March 6, 2008]"12:45 PM
hi guyz..blogging again..hee let's me report this few days what i doing..so last saturday(010308) go out with my gf work mate birthday celebration,so dinner at fish & co after that go for singing session..all the program ended at 1am plus..haha know quite a few friends..hmm like tingting(that day birthday girl),eunice,mei yi,bob(sorry if i spell wrong),lesther(sorry if i spell wrong) and jimmy..all is couple and don't mix up i put it in order,1st lady match with 1st guy..hee sunday just when out eat with my gf,watch movie and shop shop lor..normally sunday i won't go to far places..hee monday,when back to camp to do some stuff and is my last working days..haha so book out at around 3plus.. tuesday,rot at home,play game,watch tv,eat..dinner at home,my gf also come along,later send her back than meet my ITE friends..surrpost to meet up for hum but in the end,bedok 85 change to every tuesday close,recah there than recall..lol tot can eat hum but too bad..abit of disappointed (kenneth you also right)..haha wednesday and thursday(which is today)..still the same rot at home din go any where else..i know that tml(friday),is my freedom day..go back camp to take my PINK IC..fianlly pink ic is back..and my 2years of NS life is over..i will miss you guyz..haha ok la,have to end here lol.. about tml-fri(070308),tml is my big day,end of servce and take back my PINK IC,no more S.K thing to do and lalalalala..at night meet kenneth for hum..lol in the 1st place he's the one who pysco me for hum..ask me do i eat hum,say long time din eat..make me also wanna eat..so tml night die die must eat hum..haha k la take care..
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