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[Wednesday, April 30, 2008]"11:01 PM
halo..same old thing again..go work lor..alto today is my 3rd day of work but so far so good..hee so one of my college quit her job le lor..than now i have to take over her job..tml public holiday than friday go back work than i really have to do all kind of work she does..on my god,gan jiong liao,don't know i can make it ma..haha after work meet up my friends for dinner,qiang,ah xin,yi seng and benjamin(my bowling du di)..lol after dinner than when home liao..so bore..haha reach home and slack lor,some more tml public holiday..haha so that all for today..nightz..
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[Tuesday, April 29, 2008]"10:25 PM
halo..another day had gone..so far,my this job so far good..nothing much..but thursday will be my doom day,one of my college quit her job le,tml her last day,i mean maggie..so this 2days plus tml i keep learning her job desk..on my god..what if she not around le,who will assis me..it's so rush lor..sweat..haha anyway,1st time ever i do work without any sweating..keep staying in office,air-con on big big and so cooling,it will make you feel like sleeping that type..haha but i notice that my lips very dry and it's crack and very painful..what should i do??those who work in office de,got this kind of experience,can teach me this small kids and slove the problem??hee so that for today,tml can say is my last day of learning,thursday will be on my own..wish me luck man..
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[Monday, April 28, 2008]"9:24 PM
halo guyz..yawn today wake up damn early to prepare and set off to work..just nice and din late for work..when i looking around for some one,in the end i kana other people than go do what i not surpose to do..lol lame lor..in the end i know that i'm a DHL import crew..my group got 5 people plus me inside..my superviser,vicent..my shi fu,lawrence..hmm other two college which is a female one person i can't remember what her name but other one going to quit her job that one call maggie..so i will be the next one who take over her place..lol..why she want to go..don't understand..never mind.. today time past damn fast i can really say..learn alot of thing,do this and that..some more not much of smoking break..diao..if want to smoke,get out of that building and stay outside of the guard house there and smoke,no smoking inside any of the permiss..so ma fan..some more today so hot stand down there smoke sure faint sia..haha also good la,i get less smoking break which mean also can try to quit smoking..hee hope so ba.. after work,i go home for dinner liao..lol some more also no place to go..wait for bus also so long and so many people flood the bus..OH MY GOD..have some difficulty taking the transport..haha hope the bus service person can ask more people and drive..hee ok la..game time..night and take care..
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[Sunday, April 27, 2008]"10:55 PM
halo i'm back again..hmm where should i start from??let start it here,so yesterday 2 plus meet up my 2 friends to go swimming..ah xin and ping xian swim around till 4 plus get up of the pool than go bath than eat.. 530pm meet up sharon,egg,wei to go AMK there to baibai..got dua li ah pek and others,din really notice what tua is that..we stay there till morning 4plus..what happen at there can say fun,exciting,make more friends(all is kids),learn and see more thing..haha really waited very long to reach egg turn..while we were waiting,li ah pek helping people to cure their sickness..while other than cure people..he come talk to us and play alot of thing with us..tie us and try to slove the problem..talk to us..play with fire and all sort..i really can't express it out how i feel but you experience it than you will know..next time got event will jio you guy who is interested..so after every thing is done and we set back home le..reach home bath than rest than sleep le.. so today 1plus i wake up and my bro ta bao food back..after awhile meet egg than past him thing and go next place to meet my friends..nothing much,sit down eat and talk cock sing song than go one of their house to rot..haha than after i when home le..lol kind of bore right..hee to me is find..tml start work le,hope this time i can work all the way le..hee wish me luck..take care and good night..
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[Saturday, April 26, 2008]"1:04 AM
haha song again..keep listening to song than found this..heelet's listen..
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[Friday, April 25, 2008]"11:21 PM
haha so today slept until 2pm than later on do what ever thing i need..meet up ping xian go for a swim..haha too long din swim liao la,should say long time din exercise liao..hee don't have the strenght and breath to swim le..lung getting smaller le..on my god..need more exercise plus training liao ah bo keep slacking later my IPPT start than i don't know what to do liao..haha i find myself lao liao..haha so after swimming meet up lek tiong and ah xin..all my best sux cock buddy(old,long,best friends and don't get wrong idea..haha so have dinner together and go for lan gaming..lol today to less people turn up sia..but never mind..hee so that my today program..so tired night and sweet dream...
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[Tuesday, April 22, 2008]"1:19 AM
intro song again..hee found this song quite nice..by a band lead by ai sa which call '大嘴巴'..enjoy
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[Monday, April 21, 2008]"11:18 PM
hi..hee so today nothing much..rot at home..no where else can go..so rather rot at home than going out spend money..this few week and days keep thinking of some stuff but don't worry not about that thing anymore..hee it about me..it's time to change myself le..let see what i going to change : 1: trying to quit smoking..(hope i can did it ba but it take time) 2: trying to quit drinking..(try not to drink so much,happy event than drink) 3: trying to quit gamble..(try not to gamble so much,some time can gamble) haha i think for the time being this is it..i trying to do so..hee hope i can do it ba..lol..so that all for today..night guyz..
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["12:26 AM
i have a question for you all.. ~ if tml you going to die..what will you do today and what thing you wish to do?? ~
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[Saturday, April 19, 2008]"11:44 PM
so today i just rot in majong table..play 2 round..sweat sia..damn big lor..i in ivan house playin with his friends..haha today really nothing much,just rot at his house..haiz my luck is not there yet.. gamble what lose at what..need to recover it fast..sorry to sharon and egg..not i don't want to play with you guyz,is just that my luck is really bad..today i just testing only..really cannot make it..soon i organise it..hee so that all for today..night and take care guyz..
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["2:09 AM
this song starting part,it remind me alot of thing..promiss myself won't let it happen again..when pick up the phone won't hear this kind of crying sound again..heard that and it so heart breaking(can you feel that which i mean,you experience it before)..let listen..
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["2:04 AM
another nice song..alto is quite old song but is nice..let listen.. listen deeply to the lyric plus what kangkang say..
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[Friday, April 18, 2008]"2:34 PM
hi guyz..sorry for the late update..ah bo people nag liao..hmm so let start with wed 16 april..so in the afternoon when for some stuff later on meet XMM(xiaomeimei) for lunch and her friend(C.K) if i not wrong..after eating lunch we walk to P.S,half way through we get a part,don't know where they go while i waiting for traffic light..saw each other le so continue walk to P.S..reach P.S le but keep thinking where to go or shop..in the end,stay there not more than 15min and both of them when home le and me walk to bugis to meet kenneth..i meet him to go printing session..haha i long time din print things liao..hee miss those days..after everything done,take bus down to orchard to meet da sao(juli),kenneth gf..meet for dinner plus juli wanted to book the cine movie room..she want to try it and she book it..so overall today was tiring ..hee wake up so early for stuff,than meet XMM and later on kenneth plus juli..that all for the day.. 17april..early in the morning,wake up damn early for some stuff,after the thing,meet eunice for lunch..after that meet sharon,jonathan for dinner,before hand sharon call my bro to come down and join us..lol don't know why she call him down..when he reach,he really sian half way le lor,sit down and see we guyz eat..lol..lame..after get back to our la kopi place..while sitting and talking..some one started to be bore..so she start a game,which is to disturb ivan..haha miss call him,msg him,send him a puzzle msg..in the end,he LL..after he dismiss from the night class,we also on our way back home..yawn so that the day program..really very tired,yday sleep so early..hee
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[Tuesday, April 15, 2008]"10:42 PM
finally everything is out..everything settle..everything is done..really there no point of keep thinking.. 1st of all..I"M SINGLE LE..just or not long,we ended our relationship..she ask for it de..reason simple,my temper and smoking..that one thing..some how i can feel that got 3rd party..i don't want to mention it..there no point,her heart not with me le i say so much also no use..so i accept her request and i leave.. ren zhen de shi hui bian de..just a click and it change..change until you can't even know who is she or he..now i'm a free man,nothing to bother and think so much..do what ever thing i like and don't need to care so much..this is life and live without regret..me is me,so this is me,me is ALEX and always alex..nothing can change me,only me can change myself..life in my hands,so must live on happily.. na de qi jiu fang de xia..fang bu xia hai shi yao fang xia..why have to make myself so miserable..since she so heartless and want to end this relationship,why i still need to bother so much..for time being,i not interested in any relationship and will not entertain it..it time to let me rest,rest until it time but don't know when the time.. last of all,a really great thx to all my friends for accompany me,scold me,hit me,say me,guide me and do what ever thing to make me wake up..really really really a great thx to you all..you know who you are and i won't say out who you are..haha hao le ba..i will end here..take care and night..
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[Monday, April 14, 2008]"11:34 PM
this song very nice,another kind of song which express my feeling.. this is a hokkian song..if don't understand can just read chinese word..if don chinese never mind just listen to the music..can feel the sorrow feeling..
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["10:10 PM
hi guyz..back to blogging again..so whole day rot at home,din wanna go any where just want to stay at home..no where else i can go,walk here and there still the same old place..if those places i wanted to go,in the end will make my mood swing,it will bring back those days..be safe be hold,stay at home is the best..will not think too much,will not do any thing silly..just let me have some peace.. sorry to all my friends,make you guyz worry and angry..i know i silly and stupid..this is me so bobian..say is easy but do is difficult..say everyone know how to say but when after saying going to take action and that is another story..really have no choice,i can say but i just can't do it..i don't know what should i do..it so xin ku inside of me..the feeling just can't get out..wanna cry but it just can't come out from my eyes..wanna shout out loud but in the end cost sorethroat..in the end,if i do all this thing,things will be still around and not been slove..haiz.. just now out of sudden,i smell of her smell..i don't know is it her anot or is just my imagination..the smell stay 5min long..i keep wondering is it her..the smell came just outside my door step and the smell with the wind blow it in..i keep thinking "impossible""impossible""impossible"..in this kind of hour,why she will appear outside of my house..haiz just don't know why..
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[Sunday, April 13, 2008]"10:05 PM
hi guyz..not in the good mood now..so pls bear with me..i will continue my previse post..so 2plus we set off to sao mu,reach there already 330am..around 5plus we pack up le and we go bedok for breakfast..reach home around going to 7am..than i sleep until 4plus,wake up,wash face,eat lunch than after awhile more meet my friends..we just go out for gathering..reach home 10plus..so that day is how i spend it..nothing much or special..just like that lor..
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["1:56 AM
hi guyz..today wake up around 1plus..than nothing to do,so when down to coffee shop to eat my lunch..after that go back home to rot.. 5pm reach C.S to catch a movie with my friends,show call 'the threekingdom'..not bad..hee after the show go eat dinner than go for lan gaming.. around 10plus go meet kenneth and juli for supper but to them is dinner..hee some more you believe that eat food can eat till drank..i believe it coz kenneth have prove it..hee after that head back home,as for now i blogging.. soon around 2plus,setting off to fang zhang to sao mu..like that like..for the time being rot awhile and play game..hee that all..take care and night guyz..
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[Saturday, April 12, 2008]"3:00 PM
i find this meaningful..just want to let her know..this is how i feel..i wanted the relationship back..but i know is no point and the feeling won't be there anymore..i chose to be slience and din ask for patch..this ci sheng is really big..but i willing to do it.. pinyin goes like this: ru guo zhen de you yi tian wo xue hui le fang qi ni bu shi yin wei wo wang le ni er shi yin wei wo tai ai ni english goes like this: If there is one day, I've learnt to let you go, it doesn't mean I've forgotten you. But it's because I love you too much
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[Friday, April 11, 2008]"11:55 PM
this few days i keep thinking alot of thing..i found an answer for myself and i will never change it any more..sweet and short..i won't continue to be like this anymore..life will be carry on..this is me,that few week is not me just my shadow..what already had happen and happen le..past just let it past..think so much also no point or use..just let it go..it time for a fresh new start..remember,me is me..me is ALEX..
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["11:49 PM
hi guyz..1st of all,thank you my friends for today to accompany me..hee so to cynthia,thx for accompany me go repair my zen and go out..last and not least,thank you my bro kenneth and his girlfriend juli for dinner and of coz i know you guyz try to accompany,thank you so much..but sorry to disturb both of you..i look like a light blub..haha really thank you so much..
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[Thursday, April 10, 2008]"11:47 PM
you all feel that i the type of emo person??now adays keep hearing from my friends..but i don't feel that..just don't know.. for now i feel so moody and sad..just know alot of thing which is happening this few days..why have to be like this..why chose this path..WHY??can/please tell me why..is this my bao yin..haiz
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[Tuesday, April 8, 2008]"11:25 PM
today when down to office for lesson..it's take 3hours if i not wrong..talk all about my job stuff..haiz today i damn boooo lor..lose out lor..haiz me just work for only few days than i kana the lesson le..i still got one more work mate going down..so is both of us lor..he work 3 weeks plus le ba if i not wrong..he came in this company 1st den later is me..when the speaker ask thing he can react it but me still can't answer it,i know what it mean but i just can't explain it out in the way he want..early in the morning,go office listen,din eat breakfast and some more slighy sick..i try all my best to stay awake and listen what the speaker say..in the end,haha i make it..go back shop,my shifu very disappointed la..tml another lesson,must put in all my best,don't make my shifu lose face..hee good night guyz..
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["2:02 AM
hi guyz i just change my blog skin and add some stuff in hope you guyz will like it by the way i will still change and add some stuff in hee let's wait and see the final product thank you
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[Monday, April 7, 2008]"11:10 PM
yawn..finally end of work again..reach home slack,bath,than play computer liao..hee today not so busy but very tiring..some more no mood wor,monday blue..haiz so hot,sky so dark than it took so long to rain just less than 10min..sian lor..sweat sweat sweat..argggg...k la end of report..
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["12:26 AM
i find this song sing out my feeling.. click on it and listen.. close your eyes and listen,you will know how i feel..
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["12:07 AM
status of me: still feeling veri bad..i think i got sick..hmm not those fever or cought that type..it can be a long term sickness,but just don't know when it will recover..haiz just can't explain how it feel if can explain it out i think will feel it better ba..hope so..haiz haiz haiz..sad sad sad..mess mess mess..sick sick sick..dead dead dead..can you explain to me what it mean ' please don't do this to yourself ' ??what the meaning behide it..i just want to know..
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[Sunday, April 6, 2008]"11:55 PM
finally ended two days of road show..really very busy this two days..carry thing,serve customer and others things..some more sweat whole day sia..i hate hot weather,some more i work there din have wind flow in,so warm down there..as you think that i can finally relax after the road show stuff but NO..i can't rest,i still have to work hard and still need to learn alot of thing..i can't rest..that me!!no matter what,i want to learn more,no giving up,non-stop learning..that my own standard and i don't want to spoil it..no one set it for me..hee keep learning is good thing..i have the job so i have to work hard..hee k la have to end here..so tired..good night guyz..
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[Saturday, April 5, 2008]"11:39 PM
today working half way..my mind flash through my unhappiness..feel so moody just out of sudden..it's last 15 min..during this few min i really feel so moody..really don't wish to entertain people but i can't i still doing my work..why i chose this job,just not only to earn money and it can keep me busy..i want every sec,min and hour to be busy..so that i can't think thsoe unhappiness thing..but i fail,just out of sudden it appear in my mind..i really hope i can delete all those thing just like computer..haiz what should i do??how should i do?? GOD IF YOU ARE LISTEN,CAN YOU REALLY REALLY REALLY PLEASE HELP ME AND GUIDE ME..I REALLY DON"T KNOW WHAT TO DO NEXT..PLEASE..
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["11:33 PM
today was a tiring day..having a road show..can you stand for the whole day without resting or sit down..haha i did it..really very tired..tml have to go work early,have to prepare all those stuff..haiz this morning got injure,just a small want and it's hurt,touch water it's hurt alot..haha that teach me a lesson and cardboard wanna teach me lesson too..coz i a new bird..hee by the way i know some new friends..ok la..i will work hard and learn all i can..have to be fast..night guyz..
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[Friday, April 4, 2008]"10:30 PM
today was my 1st day of work..as some of you guyz know that i work as a hp salesmen..early in the morning,reach shop outside and see no sight of any one..kind of scare,tot that the shop today close ar..haha finally the boss came..open the shop with him than start to display all the stuff..after everything was done..he explain what kind of job i will be doing..kind of worry coz everything still not familier,what should do or not..after listening,i say to myself 'wow gonna be dead,1st day of work have to do and learn all this,in future still got lots more to learn'.. really have the kind of feeling that i can make it ma,i will survie ma and my head will be big ba..haha hmm to me i find my overall perform,not bad la,not so good or bad..can get use of the work and my work mate can get along..really learn alot from them and they really teach me hard..so i won't let them down,i will do all my very best and don't let them feel that wasting their time to teach me..haha have to earn money and jia you liao wor..wish me luck..
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[Thursday, April 3, 2008]"11:25 PM
sorry that just now what i just write in my blog..i really kind of fan..i really don't how to express it out..i will say some of it ba.. can say that i just lost a very very very close friend..lost someone who i can count on it and can share happy and sad thing.. someone i trust without thinking in my mind and can leave things in my friend hands.someone you can truely trust and count on it.. how will you feel if you lost someone so close?? can you understand how i feel?? haiz keep saying and saying..don't know when i can express it out fully.. WHO CAN HELP ME??GOD ARE YOU THERE??PLEASE GUIDE ME......
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["11:09 PM
today when for a job interview..everything when smoothly..thx bro..but i have to say good bye to weekend..kind of sad but slowly will get use to it..not like last time schooling days..after school can go shopping and do nothing,some more got school holiday..haha no worries and freely..now working le,everything will be change..won't like last time so freely and no worries..if got youngester viewing this blog..i want to say is spent your teenage years meaninnful and enjoy what you are doing..next time when working,you won't have that kind of feeling le..haha me old liao..k ba..tml start work liao..wish me all the best and i will do my very best..take care good night...
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["10:52 PM
i feel like a stupid fool..feel kind of playing around like a toy..if wanted this way and let it be..if you don't wish go by this path but why you still continue to go..i really don't know how to express myself le..i really like a dead human person..kind of lost and don't even know what going on..going crazy soon..i really don't like this kind of game..i wanted to game over fast..the feeling is really damn fucking chee bye piss off and fuck up..i don't know how long i still can hold..i don't like people to keep looking at me and see wheather i change already anot..me is me..change will change..what i do is what i do..haiz say so much also no point..sorry i really don't know how to express myself out..is kind a mess inside of me..i will be crazy soon..i really can't take it any more..i will not regret,i did nothing wrong and harmful thing to others..i did my part and i chose the correct path..4get it..night guyz...ZZZZZzzzzzz.......
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[Tuesday, April 1, 2008]"11:16 PM
when you enter a casino you decided to play a game you place your bet and you trust it will win banker say 'stop all you bet' but you wanted to change your betting but you wanted to take back your betting but you wanted to add less/more to the betting but everything is too late you can't do anything only thing can do is wait for the result either win or lose if it win good for you but if it lose too bad think carefully before placing your bet the bet is heavy and you will lose it heavy when that time regret also no use
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["9:24 PM
today is 01-04-2008 also known as April fool day as you know this day is mean to play jok with others but to some one they maybe don't know this is consider a jok or not what if is real what if is not they have to judge wheather is real or not
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